Hollow Girl

by Jessbee

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These are songs I've been working on since around April, inspired by my living conditions at the time. I was sharing a house with some frustrating roommates, had recently graduated college, and was having a hard time finding a job or a new place to live. The pressure made me feel more and more trapped, leading to my most angsty album yet.

Since then I've moved in with my fiance and found a decent-paying temp job, and although working full-time has made it hard to work on music or anything else, I've finally finished these four tracks. I poured a lot of effort and emotion into these, and leaving the situation that inspired them has not lessened that.

I considered trying to make the album longer or adding some bonus tracks to make up for the wait, but it only would have made the wait longer. Since the phase of my life that inspired most of this album is over, I feel it's best to let it exist as a self-contained package and save any other ideas I have for future albums.

Unfortunately, because it's so hard for me to find time to work on anything nowadays, it will probably be quite a while before you hear from me again, but hopefully when that time does come, I'll have improved even more.

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released October 15, 2017

Sierra St.Onge co-wrote the lyrics to Take On the Sun.

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Jessbee Worcester, Massachusetts

Game developer & dog lover. I write very varied music.

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Track Name: Smoke and Mirrors
You seem to know me better than me
Because our words tell a different story
Ironic, 'cause your self-awareness is lacking
Well, if you don’t like it then you’d better get packing

Fabricated aspects that I made up to appease
Can’t define a trait to save my life, I know I’m such a tease
So if you think that I’m hostile, then I’m willing to believe
Knowing you, it would be foolish to expect apologies

Can you tell me who I am? (x2)
Cause when I look inside, all I see is smoke and mirrors
How can you say who I am? (x2)
Look inside yourself for once and my side might be clearer

You helped me once, I tried to reciprocate
It took me till now to realize you weren’t worth it
I spent so long trying to sympathize
But now there’s just one thing left I wanna emphasize

A person is no better than the company they keep
So I’ll meet your friends and hear their lies and know who to delete
If you tell me I’m a bitch then, just for you, I’ll be the queen
And I’ll make myself anew from ice and feed the guillotine

Can you tell me who I am? (x2)
Cause when I look inside, all I see is smoke and mirrors
How can you say who I am? (x2)
Look inside yourself for once and my side might be clearer

Can you tell me who I am? (x2)
Cause when I look inside, all I see is smoke and mirrors
Can you tell me who I am? (x2)
Cause when I look inside, all I see is smoke and mirrors
How can you say who I am? (x2)
Look inside yourself for once and my side might be clearer too
Track Name: Rose-Colored Prison
That I could ever be so wrong
An idea I entertained too long
It’s true, I gave so much to you
And I can’t say I’ll miss you or the awful things you do

I was desperate
But I should have seen this coming
Knowing what I know of you

Now when
I look out at the sea that surrounds us
Gray and dirty though it may be
I know
I’ll escape from this rose-colored prison
And find a place where I’m finally free

A shame I can’t remember much
My mom’s birthday or what I had for lunch
I never hid my flaws from you
But I did hide my anger, and it gave you time to stew

And if I’d known
You’re the type to hold a grudge, then
I’d have saved some ammo too

Now when
I look out at the sea that surrounds us
Gray and dirty though it may be
I know
I’ll escape from this rose-colored prison
And find a place where I’m finally free
(Isn’t it ironic?)

It’s ironic
This sounds like the type of conflict
Normally reserved for lovers
But I’m happy
To consider this the end
Of my time with the world’s worst friend

Now when
I look out at the sea that surrounds us
Gray and dirty though it may be
I know
I’ll escape from this rose-colored prison
And find a place where I’m finally free
Track Name: Neon Hell
In the lights I see
Messages etched
Bright, fluorescent prophecy
Futures fading with the sun

Does it speak the truth?
Isolation brings a promise too
I can see it creeping ever closer
Day by day

And still I wake up
Prepare to waste each day
I’ll live and die within this
Neon hell we’ve made

In the dark I read
Messages carved
Slashed into the mirror, lit
By the rising of the sun

But I’m not alone
Even at my lowest I see you
You and I will make it ever brighter
Day by day

And so I wake up
Try not to feel a waste
I’ll carve my name into this
Neon hell we’ve made
Track Name: Take On the Sun
Oh, let’s take on the sun, face forward
Oh, the battle’s begun, let’s have some fun

Take the fight to the users
The abusers
Don’t waste time, now
It’s our chance, now
Fight for our good friends
Fight til the end
Don’t be shy

You hear the call of something greater
Ooh, so take up the torch and burn

Hell yeah, take on the users
The abusers
Don’t be shy, now
Now’s the time to
Fight for our children
For subversion
So let’s fly

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